There is a brief moment before you wake up where you have no recollection of anything. Yet after that moment passes, you are reminded of the things that fill your life; both the good and bad.
For me, since today of last year, I have been reminded each time that moment passes, that my mother is no longer here with me. I am reminded that my life has dramatically changed; reminded of all the sadness my heart is now full of.
Each day I am reminded of how much I wish I could change the past; how much I miss her and my old life. And though it comes as a shock to me that a whole year has passed since she was still here, frankly today is no different from the rest. It will always feel like just yesterday; no matter how much time will pass, that she was still here and never left. No matter what day it is, I always miss her smile, her laugh; and all the things I can’t get back. I am forever reminded of our memories, our adventures and every moment we ever had; but since then I am also reminded of the angel I now have.
So today, though it marks a year, is just like any other day in my life. And though I will always miss you, thankfully I know one day we will meet again.
I love you, mom.
-Peanut
