This is the second Mother’s Day I have had to “celebrate” without my mom. It sucks.
It’s not like I want to be a letdown, but seeing everyone post pictures with their moms, and their families and just enjoying the day… just hits home. Knowing that I used to have that, I used to have ALL of that and then some but not anymore really gets to me; especially on holidays like this. A day when I used to surprise my mom with creative gifts, hugs, and kisses; is all now a distant memory. I’m not going to lie, it puts me in a negative state when I think about it, how unfair it all is, but it’s the cards I was dealt and I’ve learned to try my hardest to stay positive.
Celebrating Mother’s Day is never going to be the same for me; sad but true. Everybody always prays not my mother, not my family and this is not going to happen to me. Well, welcome to the real world, where all the nerves in life become reality and unfortunately this is now mine. And though as time passes, I get stronger thanks to my mom every day, it doesn’t make it any easier which is the worst part. But I guess God gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors.
To my wonderful, beautiful, and strong mother in heaven, I love you. Happy Mother’s Day.
Love always,
Peanut
